In November I met the MOST AMAZING “Earth Angel”. I have been struggling with many things in life for years silently (tried regular counselling after my breakdown but it never fully “clicked”). One day I was very frustrated and told God that if I am meant to see a therapist than he needs to send someone my way as I’m tired of looking for the perfect fit for me. Well God worked his magic and out of the blue I was told about this amazing lady who does meditations and counselling. I was SUPER hesitant to contact her but knew it was a sign as it came about right after I said the above. I took the plunge and called Diane up. The moment I heard her voice I KNEW INSTANTLY “she was the one”. I can’t describe it but we connected instantly and our paths were SO similar it was scary! She had a way of bringing calmness and peace in each word she spoke and I couldn’t wait to meet her. I’ve been seeing her 3 months now and I have had more healing in those 3 months than I have all my life with other counsellors. She truly is an Angel walking this Earth with gifts that heal, transform, inspire and speak to your Soul. I didn’t realize how many of those onion layers I thought I had peeled away in the past still has residue left inside me waiting to emerge (but I’m thankful for everything I did in the past as each thing brought me to where I am now and peeled away those layers to get here) – and boy did they emerge! I began to learn my inner child had left with my Mom the day she died (actually saw her via a meditation hiding behind my Mom – it was the coolest thing ever), I learned how to get courage to use my voice to speak things that I had kept silent for years, I also learned that while I had an amazing connection with God in my mind, I had not allowed God into my heart ever since the day he took my Mom from me (hence why before this week I usually said Universe or Source). I also learned that when we begin to go “within” and follow our true path, God begins to send us signs and people to help elevate us higher (and boy has it been amazing, I’m still in awe at the people and situations coming into my life just when I need it).
My path has also lead me to the breakup of my marriage which in hindsight was years in the making but we kept going as best we could for our boys. Sometimes you can love someone but not be in love and the best thing you can do for both of you is set each other free. Fear has kept me paralyzed for far too long and the people God has sent my way lately has shown me that I can’t live this way anymore and I don’t want to be that 80 year old with regrets and anger as they stayed somewhere they shouldn’t have – nor did I want that for my husband. Sometimes people can be amazing friends but just can’t be lovers. Since this decision we’ve been more at peace lately than in years. While I’m TERRIFIED of where this path is going to take me, I try to take it one day at a time and trust that God will steer us both in the right direction and will provide all that we need for our family. Life changes are scary BUT do you know what’s more scary – REGRET! Most people are terrified of dying, yet most of us don’t fully live while alive. My hope is that we transition through this together as easily as possible and we can show people you can end things with love and smoothly for your family. Life is never wasted in my eyes as each thing is a blessing that either helps us grow or teaches us lessons we need to know. We were able to have some good times over the years and created two of the most beautiful gifts anyone could ever ask for – our boys – the loves of my life that keep me going through the darkest days. I know there will be some storms ahead BUT I also know the rainbow at the end will be worth it.
Life is meant to be LIVED while here. We are meant to THRIVE not just survive. Do more of what sets your Soul on fire. Live with passion and love with all your heart.