Too often we are told not to feel sad, angry, lonely, etc., but rather to "turn that frown upside down". I'm I’ve learned the hard way over the years what suppressing your emotions can do. I’m not gonna lie, I am probably one of the first people who gets uncomfortable if someone is angry, sad or unhappy around me as I’m a fixer and I want everyone to be happy, but I am working hard at trying not to do this anymore, but rather to just be there and hold the space for them to allow their emotions to be free (it’s a HUGE work in progress for me and a hard one at that). This week, I’ve had my fair share of this with others and with myself. As a “fixer” the hardest part is to see people hurting and knowing you can’t fix them, but when you “let go and let God”, you realize it never was your place to fix them. Just as with Reflexology, I am NOT a healer or a fixer, I am simply allowing the space for people to “be” and allowing a higher power to do the work on them for their highest good. I’ve been an emotional basket case this week with the full moon, wonky energies around, some health issues and waiting on news that hasn’t arrived yet (likely lack of sleep playing a role as well). I can feel the emotions in the top of my forehead and they just want to pour out sweet release, but since my breakdown I find it hard to just “let them release” as I don’t want people to think I am “weak”. Today I am realizing that this is ridiculous and that in order for me to continue on this healing journey and to lose the weight I need to honor these emotions, continue to feel them and allow them to release as going back to my old ways of stuffing these emotions away caused me to fall off track today and now I feel like CRAP! Thankfully I didn’t allow myself to fully let go (gave the rest of the pop can to my husband to finish as I realized that it wasn’t stuffing my emotions away, it was making me feel sick, I disliked EVERY bit of mac and cheese as it no longer had the comfort taste it use to have in the past when I’d eat it, and I stopped at ½ the ice cap as I decided I didn’t really want to waste 17 pts on something that really lost its taste after two sips – now as I write this I am seeing that really I didn’t do too bad after all compared to the past!).
After struggling with why I am feeling these feelings (as I didn’t know until I started writing this), I came across an article on Facebook that hit home for me yet again (and something I already knew but needed that reminder). Weight loss is NEVER going to last if we don’t heal the inner parts of us that are hurting and yearning for food to stuff the hurt away, I knew getting to the roots were gonna be hard, but dang, after the last few weeks of Hypnotherapy, I’ve felt like an emotional basket case. This crap REALLY is hard to let go of. Partially because you begin to want to take off ALL the masks now that you’ve been wearing over the years and you are starting to realize your true self and it no longer wants to please others and play roles like it used to in the past. Trust me, at one point I was ready to “throw in the towel” as this crap is exhausting (it’s so much easier to put on a mask and play a role), I come out of hypnotherapy ready to go to bed – poor Nate must think “there she goes again” as by the end I’m in such an exhausted haze that I feel like I am staring into space! I KNOW this process of healing the roots is the best thing I can do, but some days I just wish it could be a much simpler process – than I phrase I tell my clients comes in “We didn’t get this way over night, so we can’t expect to heal overnight either” – gee it’s so much easier telling people stuff than it is to live it!
I am so thankful to so many people for keeping it real and baring their Soul (part of the reason I do mine- well PART of mine) as these people inspire me and help me to see that this journey isn’t a perfect straight line, it’s one with hills, curves, bends and some really big pot holes BUT as long as we keep going we CAN DO IT!
No matter how deep in the hole you feel you are, you can ALWAYS get out! Sometimes we just need to ask for help!
Here is the story that showed up on my wall - what an inspirational Soul she is
http://www.eonline.com/news/760318/the-biggest-loser-s-ali-vincent-gained-back-most-of-the-weight-she-lost-and-is-determined-to-drop-the-pounds
After struggling with why I am feeling these feelings (as I didn’t know until I started writing this), I came across an article on Facebook that hit home for me yet again (and something I already knew but needed that reminder). Weight loss is NEVER going to last if we don’t heal the inner parts of us that are hurting and yearning for food to stuff the hurt away, I knew getting to the roots were gonna be hard, but dang, after the last few weeks of Hypnotherapy, I’ve felt like an emotional basket case. This crap REALLY is hard to let go of. Partially because you begin to want to take off ALL the masks now that you’ve been wearing over the years and you are starting to realize your true self and it no longer wants to please others and play roles like it used to in the past. Trust me, at one point I was ready to “throw in the towel” as this crap is exhausting (it’s so much easier to put on a mask and play a role), I come out of hypnotherapy ready to go to bed – poor Nate must think “there she goes again” as by the end I’m in such an exhausted haze that I feel like I am staring into space! I KNOW this process of healing the roots is the best thing I can do, but some days I just wish it could be a much simpler process – than I phrase I tell my clients comes in “We didn’t get this way over night, so we can’t expect to heal overnight either” – gee it’s so much easier telling people stuff than it is to live it!
I am so thankful to so many people for keeping it real and baring their Soul (part of the reason I do mine- well PART of mine) as these people inspire me and help me to see that this journey isn’t a perfect straight line, it’s one with hills, curves, bends and some really big pot holes BUT as long as we keep going we CAN DO IT!
No matter how deep in the hole you feel you are, you can ALWAYS get out! Sometimes we just need to ask for help!
Here is the story that showed up on my wall - what an inspirational Soul she is
http://www.eonline.com/news/760318/the-biggest-loser-s-ali-vincent-gained-back-most-of-the-weight-she-lost-and-is-determined-to-drop-the-pounds