Those that know me know I have HUGE fears (or if you've read my other blog posts you will see this). While I've gotten a LOT better (especially since our "Held's Sisters getaway"), I am still not where I want to be. I'm so tired of letting my fears rule me, and with all the changes I've been starting to make, I've decided what better time to take another leap of faith. I've had several mediums tell me I NEED to start reaching out and asking for help. I am not good at doing that as I don't like to admit defeat BUT I've also learned through the years that sometimes you just need to ask for the help (It's still a work in progress!). Yesterday I took another step in doing that (along with joining Weight Watchers and seeing my Naturopath). A long time ago a friend of mine that I met at the Rock Spa posted on her wall about a Hypnotist who works there and how good he was. I thought to myself “this would be amazing if he could cure me”, but my fears of going and lack of faith that anyone could help me with my driving stopped me from contacting him. The other week I finally HAD ENOUGH of depending on others and feeling trapped by not wanting to drive. My fear of driving has gotten so bad that I haven’t even driven the 7&8 between where I live and where I work (which is 5 mins of highway). I can do the one stretch of it, but not the other from my work to home, and I haven’t in almost 2 years now. Listening to some of my clients helps me to understand why I may have these fears as their own stories seem so similar to mine, it also helps me to realize I am NOT alone in this, and some of the strongest people I know have these fears as well. No matter how many times people tell me it’s “all in my head”, it does not change the fact that IT IS IN MY HEAD and you can’t just “pray it away”, cause I’ve tried for YEARS! It’s time to try and get more of my life back!
When I met with my Hypnotherapist yesterday I was anxious and not knowing what to expect, but as soon as he stared talking and looked at me like “he got it”, rather than trying to tell me it’s in my head or looking at me like I was crazy, I immediately let my guard down and opened up. We didn’t even have a session yesterday as we just talked about what would happen, but already I felt a little more at peace with it all. I won’t lie, while I do believe in it now a HUGE part of me still thinks that there is no way this guy is ever going to cure me, cause at this point I can’t begin to imagine driving down that 7&8 or further than I go already and IF he can cure me, than he is a MIRACLE WORKER cause I’ve had things Help me in the past but nothing FULLY CURED me of it enough to get past it. While I am hesitant, I also am putting all my faith in God to work through him to help this to work, as I am so tired of living a life where you depend on others (you begin to feel super guilty and like a “tag along” always having to ask for rides).
I will keep you posted on the progress (I start April 1st) and trust me if he helps me, I TOTALLY will be spreading his name like wild fire as it will be one heck of a miracle!!!!
When I met with my Hypnotherapist yesterday I was anxious and not knowing what to expect, but as soon as he stared talking and looked at me like “he got it”, rather than trying to tell me it’s in my head or looking at me like I was crazy, I immediately let my guard down and opened up. We didn’t even have a session yesterday as we just talked about what would happen, but already I felt a little more at peace with it all. I won’t lie, while I do believe in it now a HUGE part of me still thinks that there is no way this guy is ever going to cure me, cause at this point I can’t begin to imagine driving down that 7&8 or further than I go already and IF he can cure me, than he is a MIRACLE WORKER cause I’ve had things Help me in the past but nothing FULLY CURED me of it enough to get past it. While I am hesitant, I also am putting all my faith in God to work through him to help this to work, as I am so tired of living a life where you depend on others (you begin to feel super guilty and like a “tag along” always having to ask for rides).
I will keep you posted on the progress (I start April 1st) and trust me if he helps me, I TOTALLY will be spreading his name like wild fire as it will be one heck of a miracle!!!!