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Nothing brings a smile to my face more at 6 am than waking to the sounds of birds singing their songs. It inspired me so much last week that instead of falling back asleep, I hauled myself out of bed, woke Coby (our dog) and headed out for a walk. It's amazing the peace that fills your Soul walking before the suns even up while listening to the sounds of the birds so early in the am while the cool breeze brushes your face - so much more satisfying than sleeping in my bed (which I never thought I'd say that!). There is something about being in nature that allows your mind to go into a state of relaxation and renewal. It also gives you time to reflect on things that our busy lives never allow us to. The last two weeks have been full of lessons, realizations, and releases for me. Some good, some not so good but all part of my growth. Not sure if all this releasing is what has caused me to be sick in bed all weekend and still not right today or if it's a bug running through me, but my body is going through something. All I know is I've learned a lot about myself and others these last two weeks.
I've learned (but may not be ready to live yet) :
1. No matter what anyone thinks/says/feels we have to remain true to our own stories/beliefs and if it means losing people along the way than at least you can say you are living your truth.
2. No matter how many times I get hurt by "being too nice", it's worth it as I'd rather walk my path in life being the kind, caring person I am than walking it in anger and bitterness (and yes sometimes when I do get burned my husband likes to remind me how I am "too nice" - REALLY - can you ever be "too nice" - maybe one day I will disagree but for now this is how I love to live.
3. No matter what anyone does they CAN change if they are willing to do the work, and before we judge someone we should look in the mirror at all the things WE have done over the years that needed forgiveness (keep in mind I am referring to people who REALLY admit they have done wrong and WANT to change, not the ones who say they are sorry yet keep doing what they've always done).
4. When we release the need to control things, the Universe begins to work miracles and sends the right people/things our way to help us on our journey.
5. It's OK to cry and release the emotions stirring up inside you (even if it IS in public and it sneaks out when you least expect it - but the harder you fight it, the stronger it will come)
6. It's OK if this journey takes months or years as it's not about the destination it's all about the lessons, learning and growth along the way.
7. That food has played a HUGE part in comforting me over the years and it's tough feeling the feelings rather than stuffing them down (cause that greasy pizza sure can sooth the Soul when you are in the dumps - or at least for 10 mins!)
8. That I have the most AMAZING best friend in the world who has always been there for me when I need it and always puts others ahead of her own needs. I am blessed to have had her in my life these last 37 years and I look forward to the next 37 with her by my side.
9. That without self love we having nothing cause NO ONE or NO THING can comfort us or take away the loneliness than our own self love.
10. That when you're scared to let someone/something go in your life, reflect on what it is you REALLY are scared of. What does that thought of letting them/it go bring up in you (abandonment, loss, lack of love, etc.....). Is it really the person/item you are scared to let go or is it the emotion that it brings up that you are afraid of feeling.
and another REALLY important lesson I have learned while enjoying (yes, you heard me ENJOYING - I know you never thought I would say these words!) the last few weeks at "Church" (OK I like to call it the non "churchy church", as that's how I feel about it). One thing that has REALLY hit home with me is something that was said during the service:
"Be the person that your looking for is looking for"
WOW these are powerful words and hit me HARD! So often we blame our spouse/partners for things lacking in our life/marriage but we need to look deep within and see if WE are being that kind of person to them and others. (of course this stirred up more things in me that had my wheels turning - I'm sure everyone saw the smoke coming out my ears - and I still have a LOT of reflecting on this subject yet to do - BUT I know that this is all part of the journey I have decided to embark on).
Weight Loss shouldn't be about shedding pounds to look good for others (as it was in my past), it's about loving yourself and finding the person who's hiding deep within that is dying to be loved, healed, forgiven and released. No mater what the scale says, it wont change who WE ARE on the inside until we do the inner work to heal. We can be 100 pounds less than we are now but if we haven't healed our inner self, the outer self will be the only thing that has changed. How empowering this can be when we take the time to feel the pain and release all that is buried deep within (and how scary it can be as well).
Thank goodness for Detox Tea, Sage and Epsom Salts cause I sure feel a lot being released lately (my poor neighbours are probably wondering what that weird smell is coming from my house as I sage each nook and cranny :D .
May you enjoy the beauty of nature this spring and allow it to sooth your Soul as well.
I've learned (but may not be ready to live yet) :
1. No matter what anyone thinks/says/feels we have to remain true to our own stories/beliefs and if it means losing people along the way than at least you can say you are living your truth.
2. No matter how many times I get hurt by "being too nice", it's worth it as I'd rather walk my path in life being the kind, caring person I am than walking it in anger and bitterness (and yes sometimes when I do get burned my husband likes to remind me how I am "too nice" - REALLY - can you ever be "too nice" - maybe one day I will disagree but for now this is how I love to live.
3. No matter what anyone does they CAN change if they are willing to do the work, and before we judge someone we should look in the mirror at all the things WE have done over the years that needed forgiveness (keep in mind I am referring to people who REALLY admit they have done wrong and WANT to change, not the ones who say they are sorry yet keep doing what they've always done).
4. When we release the need to control things, the Universe begins to work miracles and sends the right people/things our way to help us on our journey.
5. It's OK to cry and release the emotions stirring up inside you (even if it IS in public and it sneaks out when you least expect it - but the harder you fight it, the stronger it will come)
6. It's OK if this journey takes months or years as it's not about the destination it's all about the lessons, learning and growth along the way.
7. That food has played a HUGE part in comforting me over the years and it's tough feeling the feelings rather than stuffing them down (cause that greasy pizza sure can sooth the Soul when you are in the dumps - or at least for 10 mins!)
8. That I have the most AMAZING best friend in the world who has always been there for me when I need it and always puts others ahead of her own needs. I am blessed to have had her in my life these last 37 years and I look forward to the next 37 with her by my side.
9. That without self love we having nothing cause NO ONE or NO THING can comfort us or take away the loneliness than our own self love.
10. That when you're scared to let someone/something go in your life, reflect on what it is you REALLY are scared of. What does that thought of letting them/it go bring up in you (abandonment, loss, lack of love, etc.....). Is it really the person/item you are scared to let go or is it the emotion that it brings up that you are afraid of feeling.
and another REALLY important lesson I have learned while enjoying (yes, you heard me ENJOYING - I know you never thought I would say these words!) the last few weeks at "Church" (OK I like to call it the non "churchy church", as that's how I feel about it). One thing that has REALLY hit home with me is something that was said during the service:
"Be the person that your looking for is looking for"
WOW these are powerful words and hit me HARD! So often we blame our spouse/partners for things lacking in our life/marriage but we need to look deep within and see if WE are being that kind of person to them and others. (of course this stirred up more things in me that had my wheels turning - I'm sure everyone saw the smoke coming out my ears - and I still have a LOT of reflecting on this subject yet to do - BUT I know that this is all part of the journey I have decided to embark on).
Weight Loss shouldn't be about shedding pounds to look good for others (as it was in my past), it's about loving yourself and finding the person who's hiding deep within that is dying to be loved, healed, forgiven and released. No mater what the scale says, it wont change who WE ARE on the inside until we do the inner work to heal. We can be 100 pounds less than we are now but if we haven't healed our inner self, the outer self will be the only thing that has changed. How empowering this can be when we take the time to feel the pain and release all that is buried deep within (and how scary it can be as well).
Thank goodness for Detox Tea, Sage and Epsom Salts cause I sure feel a lot being released lately (my poor neighbours are probably wondering what that weird smell is coming from my house as I sage each nook and cranny :D .
May you enjoy the beauty of nature this spring and allow it to sooth your Soul as well.