Well I knew I had "changes" to make as make as my body has been giving me signs for months, but I kept putting them off as it's been a little crazy at work and home lately. It wasn't until I filled out my "Pre Wellness Forms" this morning for the program I have signed up for that I realized just how bad I have been neglecting my Mind, Body and Spirit lately. I've been so use to 'living in pain" that you tend to forget about it and just "deal with it", but I am to the point now where I am ready to heal so I can LIVE. So often our body will give us signs that we NEED CHANGE and so often we ignore it until it becomes too late (whether through illness or worse losing our life). I saw the quote to the left on google today and it really "hit me". We only get one body to carry us around our whole life and it's time I stop neglecting it. While I am TERRIFIED to make these changes (and most I knew I had to make for years) as they wont be easy, I know it will be the most rewarding thing for me. When we take the time to sit in silence, reflect and "tune in" to what our body is saying, we can truly begin our path to wellness. From this moment on, I am not doing any more "fad diets", I am not joining any more "make you want to vomit boot camps" and I am not making anymore "New Years Resolutions", I simply am going to take each moment as it comes and walk it one step at a time. I am going to honor my body and what it is telling me and not push it to be something it's not (some bodies may enjoy the "boot camps" but I know my body is one that doesn't as I've tried it several times). We each are unique in our own way and we need to stop trying to fit into others ideas of what we should be. I know this journey will be full of many "ups and downs" but I also know it will be worth it in the end. I'm not gonna lie, I am VERY nervous about starting this program on Thursday, I fear failure, I fear being judged when my Naturopath and Nutritionist (who are running it) see just how bad I have been neglecting my body (we have to do a food journal each day - I thought of "cheating" and purposely eating better just for the journal or not recording the junk, but tham it hit me - I would only be cheating myself), and I fear being weighed in. But if we continue to live in fears, we will NEVER get outside our comfort zone. After going on a trip this summer with my sister, I saw just how rewarding and freeing living outside your comfort zone can be. I stepped FAR OUTSIDE mine by getting on the plane (I am VERY claustrophobic) and taking a trip without my hubby, going whitewater rafting at the front of the boat to boot (Did I mention this is a CRAZY river we went down!!!), riding a gondola up a STEEP mountain (ok so my eyes were shut for half of it and my sister got her thrills watching me sing out loud while I held on for dear life ....trust me it was NOT a pretty sight, but I did it!), AND to top it off I got inside a helicopter that took us HIGH above mountains (I will add it was MY suggestion to do the helicopter - I think my sister said YES thinking I would chicken out.....my kids and nephews even asked if I was sick when we phoned home to tell them what we were about to do!). I have NEVER felt so free in my life! I want to continue to live life, not live my fears.