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I'm finding since starting this POSH program I am learning, growing and becoming a little more adventurous! I even came home from the hairdresser with Purple and Pink highlights the other week - something I have ALWAYS wanted to try but didn't have the courage to go through with it, and I must say I am LOVING it! When we begin to listen to our Soul and not everyone around us, we begin to live within and become who we truly were meant to be. I've also been more adventurous in the kitchen (sometimes it wasn't a good thing haha). My new craving is Portobello mushrooms topped with sauteed Bok Choy (two things I never cooked with before), cherry tomatoes, sesame seeds and coconut oil (next time I will add garlic) and a hard boiled egg (fresh from a friends farm). I also attempted homemade granola for my kids (which I wasn't supposed to eat but HAD to try and I must say it is going to be hard to resist!!!). I totally have flipped from "I only eat out" to "Mrs. Betty Crocker"! While I have a long way to go, it sure feels good trying foods I would have walked right by in the past, AND to crave veggies is a miracle for me as normally it was chips, chocolate and greasy foods. My body sure can tell the difference and I actually get FULL on veggies, where the junk left me unsatisfied and craving more. Trust me, a few months ago I NEVER thought I'd be where I am now. I'm also listening to my body more than I would have in the past. I am starting my 6 week liver/kidney/candida detox and while we are supposed to be getting daily exercise in our program I am on, my body/mind/spirit kept telling me it is too overwhelming right now to squeeze all this in on top of all the other things I have been having to get done and going on in my life at the moment. I struggled for a bit feeling guilt and forcing myself to get the exercise in, than after almost having a "melt down" I realized this is crazy and I need to listen to my body. I made the decision that HEALTH right now is more important than WEIGHT (I DO know that my weight needs to drop to be healthy, but to me eating healthy is my main focus and once I have that down pat I will ween in the exercise). After telling H&H at my meeting with them about my decision I felt a huge weight lifted off my shoulders and like I was in control again (even though I always was but mentally didn't feel like it, as I felt I would be letting them down by doing it my way). To me if it takes a year, two or three to get down to my "ideal weight" I am OK as long as I can re train my body/mind to eat healthy and make healthy choices I am good with that. I get overwhelmed easy, and change is hard for me, so focusing on one thing at a time is how I need to move to stay on track and focused. I think too often people ignore what their body is telling them, and this sets us up for failure. Funny thing is, since making this decision, I find myself wanting to get more steps in on my Fitbit (and am actually enjoying seeing how many I can do in a day), it's almost like when we let go of something, it lets things unfold in it's own time and way. Letting go of the NEED to exercise for me created the WANT to do it (even if it's only extra steps in a day). It's also not easy being the ONLY one in the house who is making these changes. While some families like to do it together, mine prefers their regular food - and it's partially my fault as I never cooked the healthiest to begin with so I can't expect my family to change now. What is neat though is watching the little changes they are unconsciously making without me saying anything just by seeing me eat differently. My one son is now asking for protein shakes as a snack (Banana, Organic Peanut Butter, Chocolate Protein Powder and Almond Milk), and my other is snacking on my homemade granola in yogurt, while my hubby's pop consumption has gone WAY down. Sometimes when we don't force change it just happens naturally.
*** NOTE: you can view my food pictures under the FOOD TAB
*** NOTE: you can view my food pictures under the FOOD TAB