Today is the first day to the start of a New Year, a fresh new start (BUT really EACH DAY is a chance for a fresh new start). Today I have made the conscious decision to make 2016 the YEAR FOR ME! A year to become all I've ever wanted to be. All the years leading up to this year have contributed immensely to allowing this to come. I know in my heart of hearts this will NOT be an EASY challenge but it's one I want to try and embark. I have so many dreams/goals/wishes buried deep within me still, and the thought of one day dying with them yet still inside me scares the heck out of me (after all we came here to grow and learn right??!!??). My body begins to tremble and my stomach fills with butterflies as I think of ALL the things I want to do, BUT than that voice comes in my head and reminds me to not look at the mountains I want to climb but focus on each rock along the trek up. For these rocks are the TRUE foundation to the mountain. Volunteering in a hospice and being around those passing over the years and hearing how one of the number one regrets people have is not doing the things they wish they would have when they had "time", remind me to let not this happen. For too long I've let my fears guide me and while I have gotten better I still have to "let go". This is going to be the year I either FULLY (hopefully) Let go OR at least take a LOT more steps in that direction.
My Uncle Rudy's words have been coming into my mind a lot lately "What others think of you is none of your business", and it gives me the strength to move forward in all areas of my life that I have let slowly die within me. I don't know where this chapter will take me, how long it will take or if I will succeed BUT at least I feel the courage to attempt it.
To start this chapter off with SOME of the things I had buried within me, I have decided to "jump in with both feet" yet again and take TWO (yes you heard me, Mrs "anxiety" is taking TWO) courses. Ones that I've wanted to do for years, but the fears kept me paralyzed. I can feel the 'shackles" around my legs loosening and slowly I begin to feel my wings starting to get ready to fly.
"Surround yourself with people and things that makes your SOUL SMILE, life is too short not to"
A song that helps me feel these wings and warms my heart is one a dear family member loves. She has battled many things in her life, lives with a disability and doesn't have much, but her heart is filled with hope, love and joy (more than most of us can say). As I listen to this song, I think of her and the courage she has and I allow that to spread to my body, heart and Soul to help me remember how to let my own wings carry me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GIQn8pab8Vc
My Uncle Rudy's words have been coming into my mind a lot lately "What others think of you is none of your business", and it gives me the strength to move forward in all areas of my life that I have let slowly die within me. I don't know where this chapter will take me, how long it will take or if I will succeed BUT at least I feel the courage to attempt it.
To start this chapter off with SOME of the things I had buried within me, I have decided to "jump in with both feet" yet again and take TWO (yes you heard me, Mrs "anxiety" is taking TWO) courses. Ones that I've wanted to do for years, but the fears kept me paralyzed. I can feel the 'shackles" around my legs loosening and slowly I begin to feel my wings starting to get ready to fly.
"Surround yourself with people and things that makes your SOUL SMILE, life is too short not to"
A song that helps me feel these wings and warms my heart is one a dear family member loves. She has battled many things in her life, lives with a disability and doesn't have much, but her heart is filled with hope, love and joy (more than most of us can say). As I listen to this song, I think of her and the courage she has and I allow that to spread to my body, heart and Soul to help me remember how to let my own wings carry me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GIQn8pab8Vc