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I wanted to take a moment and wish everyone a Happy Mother's Day. Whether you're a Mom, Step Mom, Mom to be, Mom to a pet ....what ever the case may be. I hope you took some time to pamper yourself a little for all you do. Mother's Day never has been one of my favourite time of year as it always makes me miss my own Mom that much more. I only was able to spend four years of my life with my Mom before she lost her hard fight to cancer. Just when you think this day will get easier, something triggers it. While I was VERY blessed today to get to spend my day with those that mean a lot to me, there is still a little piece of your heart that feels like it is missing when you don't have your own Mom to share this day with. I was good until we were in church and I saw a women come in and sit in the pew ahead of us and give her Mom the biggest hug. What I would give to be able to have one more hug from my Mom. So often I hear people complaining about their Mom's and I think - wow, what I would give to have my Mom annoy me like that. Enjoy each moment you have with your Mom no matter how annoying they may be at times as you never know when that moment may come when they are taken from you far too soon. It may be 33 years since I saw my Mom last, but on days like this it feels like it was only yesterday that she was taken from us. While the pain gets easier, the longing for one more hug from your Mom never goes away. I KNOW she is with me every day watching from above - just wish I could see her smile one more time. Not gonna lie I DID indulge today for Mother's Day, not because I was stuffing feelings down, but because I wanted to treat myself today. I am learning the difference between treating and NEEDING food for comfort. Some people have said a few good words of advice lately that help me to see that by depriving ourselves of all good things (non healthy) we are more likely to binge. We need to learn to treat ourselves once in awhile and learn how to control it rather than eliminate it. The last couple of days I have began to see that I am not the type of person who wants to make her own crackers from scratch, who wont warm up her food in the microwave when in a pinch and who counts calories for a living. I DO want to be healthy BUT I also want to make changes I KNOW I can keep - this is so empowering when we truly listen to our OWN bodies and not that of everyone else who thinks they know us best. Don't get me wrong, I am VERY thankful for all I have learned over the years, but I am also starting to see that I need to be in a happy medium place of the "healthy spectrum" (not eating like I was before, BUT not making every moment of my day about what foods I should/shouldn't be eating and what foods may/may not cause cancer), and now this is finally ok with me - maybe this was the perfect Mother's Day gift for me to get - The confidence to believe in my own intuition and what my body wants to tell me. It's funny how it's easy to tell others to listen to their own intuition yet it's so hard for us to. I had a great talk with a friend the other day about her sick dog and how I believe he was telling her a certain medication was not right for HIS body, it was so obvious by the things he was doing, yet I wasn't listening to my own body/mind when others were trying to get me to take/do things over the years that my body wasn't sitting right with. I find it VERY hard to say NO to people. Thankfully over the years I am learning this, but it's so very hard. I use to just give in, but lately I am speaking up more and while it may take three times saying NO, my answer is still NO. I believe people are put in our life for a reason, and I am thankful for the ones who have been put in mine to show me strength, wisdom and empowerment. We weren't put in this life to sail through it easy. We were meant to hit waves and get thrown in different directions so we would come out of the storm that much stronger.
Happy Mother's Day to all of you - may your life be full of blessings today and always xo
Happy Mother's Day to all of you - may your life be full of blessings today and always xo